A great feeling.

It's about ten minutes to 8 pm here in Mountain Home, Idaho.  The air is crisp and refreshing.  Somewhere in the trees near my house two songbirds are having a conversation.  The crickets are joining in and the sounds of life are going on all around me.  I'm sitting on my porch in a chair I bought at work for just this reason.  My clothes are worn (good thing right, otherwise this would be illegal) and loose fitting.  The sky is a fading baby blue with hints of orange and darker blue on the western horizon.  Clouds hover lazily over Bennett Mountain about ten minutes outside of town.  A small tender breeze is blowing from the north.  Cars full of people going about their lives are heard passing on nearby Airbase Road.  Somewhere out there my wife, Keri, and two of my little uns, Nathan and Jenna, are having a good time in Grand View.  I hear the sounds of my other three kids playing in the living room inside the house behind me.  Right now, as I exhale and take in the world around me, I am at peace.  The feeling of content that flows through me now is beyond imagination.  Just yesterday, my mom, Ursula, celebrated her 50th birthday.  I'm sure she'll kick my bum for saying so too.  As far as the rest of us are concerned she's only 29.  It's just a little awkward to say that though because I'm 31 now.  Oh well.  My oldest daughter, Jenna, turned five years old yesterday as well.  She's growing up to be just as beautiful as her mother.  Her big blue eyes and gorgeous hair resting over her shoulders....mmmmmmmmmmm.......she is the image of beauty.  She gets that from her mom if I do say so myself.  And I do.  She and her mother share that trait with Elizabeth, my youngest daughter, currently of two years old.  I have so many reasons right now to express discontent and misery but I choose to ignore them and instead focus on what precious gifts God has given me.  Almost three weeks ago, my youngest son, Elliot, came into this world earlier than any of us wanted him to and he has since passed on to walk among angels and watch us all live out our lives.  He is and will always be a personage of perfection.  I love and miss him tremendously.  You know if you think about it, there is much in life that is perfect. This time, right now, as I'm sitting outside on the porch writing this blog, is supremely perfect.  It's almost like I'm in the company of angels and all that is beautiful.  I feel connected to everything and nothing all at once.  Hard to explain with words really.  You'd just have to experience it for yourself sometime if you haven't already.  Life is good and that's all I'm saying.  We are surrounded by beauty and perfection everyday.  Take a moment for yourself.  Isolate your body and center your mind.  Find your happy place if you will and let the universe show you something amazing.  Let it show you what you see and feel everyday but dismiss without a second thought.  Get ready!!  Brace yourself! and be AMAZED!!