For the last few weeks in my life, I've been exposed to more stress and drama then I want to deal with and I really don't want to go on about it but I will for the sake of clearing my head. At work, there are some people who are not as committed to the job or the responsibilities thereof. It does not fall to me to carry their burden as well as my own but I'm not the guy who watches while others drown in failure. Am I wrong to take up their duties as well as my own? Should I let them falter and fail and possibly lose their jobs? I did not take this job to make friends. I have a family that depends on me to sustain a lifestyle for them, put food on the table, clothes on their backs, and help bring peace of mind to their days. If I'm stressed out at work and give in to the drama and the "complainant's band wagon" then I'm no better than the rest. I try everyday to shrug off the drama and take a more zen approach. I try to figure out how best to overcome the situation and learn from my mistakes if indeed I'm to blame but sometimes its a moot effort. I'm not the guy who says that I'm tired of working my butt off if no one else does but I am the guy who works with a purpose. We are all a team and must function as such. No one part can sum up the whole without the others. No matter how hard I work my efforts seem to go unnoticed unless all parties are doing as well or better than me. I'm not a working superstar but I'm consistent. In my consistence, I strive for excellence and expect others to do the same. It's what we're paid to do. I was once told that I cannot expect others to care of work as hard as I do. It was a sad day when I realized the truth of that statement. There are a lot of co-workers in the same situation as me. It's weary on the bones to carry the burden of others while we sit and watch them get paid for doing absolutely nothing. Enough of that. Here's something else that's been weighing on me for quite some time. I have, in the past seven years, gotten really close to two gentlemen who I, at one point, considered brothers. At some point in time though, one of them committed an apparent transgression against the other. Now it's awkward for me to be friends with both them. They are neighbors to one another but do not talk to each other. At one point, there was a girl in the picture but she's gone now and they're still not talking. How frustrating. Both are stubborn and don't think anything is wrong. Sometimes we can't expect others to move on as quickly I suppose. I've drifted too far from one friend and am drifting away from the other with each passing day. We all still get along and respect one another as far as I know but life moves on and so do friends I guess. I have to admit to myself that there are some things in life I can't control and that's hard to do but I'm working on it. Everyone has their free agency, or ability to do whatever they darn well please but that doesn't make it any easier to deal with.
